There were a few years in there post mom dying, midlife depressive, perimenopausal days where I was pretty much stuck on the couch in a fetal position for many days..That was several years ago..I had few close friends except party buddies and acquaintances but for the most part I was one sad puppy..that's OK-that is just where I was.
Fast forward many therapy sessions later, Master's education in Counseling, grief work pretty much completed and I got to have a day like yesterday! H & I playfully saying We have friends! Like it is something new, something to be treasured -because at the end of the day, friends and family are all that really count.
Spa day with Dread Pirate, Iron Geekgirl and Cindy was the BEST! We laughed, talked, Spa-ed and ate our way through the day..nary a care in the world. These are all women who are middle-aged, I being the oldest. We have triathlon, raising kids, having husbands in common. All of it appeared in my day yesterday..I look back and wonder who was that depressed woman who didn't even want to leave my house most days, much less hang out with my people, my women friends? I felt comfortable, at home at Girls' Day Out yesterday. Just like my old self, back in the days of High School, when my friends were everything to me..
There is hope for me forever now. I never again have to stay in that place again. That dark, depressive state of being.. Welcome to the land of friends and life and happy days again!