H & I decided to do our long ride yesterday instead of this Saturday because H is taking a class in "Bike Repair" on Sat. This is really good news because I always have loved handy men and well, bike repair fits that status for sure. I already love my sweet hubby but this just makes him more lovable and we will have free bike repair. No more "Uh, why is my wheel wobbling?" Or, "What is this tool for now?"
We really had to pump ourselves up yesterday for the 64 mile ride. In all we averaged over 15 MPH, which is good however, it was tedious I must say. We are both questioning why we are doing this IM training again this year (he did IMCDA training with me). Exhaustion and soreness does not make for good resolve for training. H has always been the one to help me through these times. Now that we are both training for IMAZ, there is a question. Who pushes who when we are both tired? H was ready to throw in the towel yesterday. I had little resistance to this idea, although I knew it was my turn to be the one to encourage this time. I did say Let's give this another few weeks. If it is still no fun, we will pull out of IMAZ. That's it..I said it..We have a choice. It is only a triathlon-not life or death..When it stops being fun, on a consistent basis, it is not worth it. Now I know the prize-The You are an Ironman feeling that H doesn't have or know yet. I realize that in order to IM train, you REALLY have to want this. Past the pain, past the boring long rides, past the irritation, sometimes feeling over trained, soreness, self doubt and all the tired days. It is a kind of stubbornness that is a driving force behind the journey..to get to that one end-You are an Ironman!
I am not sure I have that intractable resolve right now. Will it come back? Not sure..I have never quit on anything that I remember. I got my will power from my mom-some might call it stubborness-never give up-ness. I can't imagine giving up on this...