Thursday, August 23, 2007
Confidence dashed again..
I was bike riding with a group yesterday that I have gone with before. My first clue at 8:30 in the morning should have been there were 2 groups-the FAST group (some younger, some older), then the SLOW group (mostly guys in their 60s and 70s). Well, I thought, I am definitely in the FAST group, after all I am a triathlete. So Hartley and I headed up to the east side of the mountains with them or rather should I say behind them (me, not Hartley). As I am trudging up Route 66 I start to feel like crap. My head is pounding, I am anaerobic for about 30 minutes. i am getting more frustrated by the minute. I flash back to age 14 when all the other swim kids finally caught up to my height (I was almost the tallest one in my class through grade school thus beat all the little kids on swim team until they were as tall as me). I am the last one in the race, I am feeling low and frustrated. This is the feeling i always get when i am behind a group like this. After about an hour, I feel like I am going to cry..I told Hartley-that's it for me-I am heading back to town. Hartley says he is going with me-then I really feel bad cause I know he can keep up with the FAST group..but he says he loves me and wants to be with me so what can I say to that? My husband is like that-I am so lucky. So I take my frustration and we ride back to Tramway and proceed to go do Tramway, which is quite a hill, at my own pace. We thought we might meet up with the SLOW group but never did. We ended up riding 41 miles. I started to feel better when H told me that Coach Mico told him that triathletes really never excel in any one sport because we train in all three. That made me feel better because the FAST group is training for a 100 mile ride and most of them probably ride 150+ per week. Who knows-maybe it was the speed work we did on the track the day before, or Josh's workout the same day. I am over beating myself up for being slow among FAST riders..I am NOT 14 anymore and need to feel thankful that I can even walk or ride or do anything..